A Pity Party!
Just wanted to drop in and say Hi! How is everyone? I've been feeling sorry for myself, so much has hit me this year and seems to keep piling up. Life is unpredictable, emotions are unpredictable, I want control even when I know I'm not in control, circumstances happen and so many more reasons. Yet, sometimes its not just that I feel sorry for myself in which God will remind me of others that have it a lot worse than I do. It's that feeling when something just breaks within myself, my personality changes from being friendly and talkative to one of quietness and the desire to not let myself get close to anyone. It's fear, if I let it take root then my heart fills with bitterness, I build a wall so I can't be hurt by others and circumstances. But, see I don't want that wall around my heart nor do I want it filled with bitterness. So, how do I cope with it? You see, this has been a struggle for 15 years. I've noticed that when I feel broken and